he is back

he is back...
YES! he back yesterday don't know what time...
just want to wrote down my filling now...
???
what should i say?! i dun know what i feel now...

he is back.
but soon he will back to home town.
my heart still not give up...
he is at the deeper place...
from now on no one i would tell, not even the closer one.
only God and the before this day people know it.
this will be my secret.
unless something was happening to me.
then i will tell others about it.
the feeling that i had about him still stir in my deeper place.
i can't even forget it.

it is something, stir like fire burning in heart;
not sweet, not salt, but just burn and burn.
sometime stir like water, cooling my heart;
sometime like wind, pass by my cool heart;

whenever i think of something or somebody name,
sure his name will pass by my mind,
even the face that i think of is not him.
when my heart calling out a name; sure there is his name.
even i walk through some place,
i 'll wrongly think that the guy in front me is him,
but actually not.


When i face to him my face will still become red,
my heart will still 'pop ping' very fast,
my hand will shaking,
my mind 'll blank,
my mouth can't even talk well.
what is this all about.
i tough this shouldn't happen again,
cause it's pass two years ago.

now i am 21st...
people say need to letting go,
in college i never think about it.
when ever i do,
i sleep, i read, i taking shower, i eating...
and i never let myself nothing to do or lonely,
so that i can be busy and busy and in the end forgot about it.
But....it doesn't work i am still the same,
still can be attracted by him move,
every move that he had took.

i always told myself even one day older or one year older;
one second, one minute, one hour younger also no way.
but here he is not even one year older then me.