wah i feel so sad now because lot of friends was living today. some go to others company some been fire. may be they are not been fire but dun want to work. but in my heart really fill that they are been fire lol.

ah just now forgot to take some photo with felicia so that i might not forgot her ma...never mind lol, next time meet take photo.

really sad lol...now office left little of people. non is good now how i going to continue stay lei, just pray that i may not fail in the practical. pray that they may give me some mercy. cause i dun want to take again. i believe that lecturer will trust them but not me.

ahhh...now is the problem i had long time ordy not ask mary to sign then now my supervisor is Kath how could i tell her and ask her to sign lei? never mind la just left it to God lol...i know is my laziness but pray that God's forgiven. i know is hard to work with Kath. Lord, God i will try my very best to do it, i do know Kath's well is so high but i will not do it by myself, i know u r with me. u will helping me up, when i need love, u r there. when i need courage u r there. when i need rest well u r there. u always beside me, guide me, lead me, teach me, and do with me.

thank you Lord, Father in Heaven. i pray in the Most High Name, and the Most Wonderful, Beautiful, Sweet, Soft, Lovely Name of JESUS, Amen!!!

left three hour half then this office will only left 8 people and may add in some new people. all my friend will be living soon. just as one word say the old will gone nd the new will come.

ahhh...last day of the month now. Time is going so slow, but i still want to thank God for every mercy and grace that he had giving unto me. today why am i so sleepy?
last night i sleep early. If like that tonight i must sleep at 10pm lol. Oh God i dun want to fall in sleep help me Lord.

much better now my eyes not so tiring now.

day of work is going to finish wat my filling? nada just know that if can dun wan to sleep but doing job so at home.

today is the day that i been put to the second floor office - sales department, because of i cant doing well in the operated department. mary is upsad with me, and joyce so.
i think my school know about this. i already no mood to continue work here. and i never had working in one place so long before. last time the most longer is only 3 month. never more than this. haih... malangnya hati aku tak puas pun tak guna.
really sorry to every1 i had giving trouble to.
and i wan to thanks God for he still let joyce to let me continue working here. i thank you Father so giving mercy and grace to me so...thank you father in heaven.

30 March

ahhhahhahahahah so wan to shout it out, my jealous not filling good about a person always acting good in front off others. she always had lot of friend.
haih...not same life is like that la.
my family treat me still ok la. but here i almost die off liaw.
what can i do nada. same thing i can say.
sad sad sad....
she had what she wan and i am not & had nothing. non of it is my.

at church, kuching

what an alien am i was...

really an alien...haha

this is not me ya...some1 else haha

who this gurl is?

had a women conference; Venue: Sarawak Chamber, Riverside majestic kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia. Date: 4th & 5th May 2009, Theme: Beauty & Confidence 2009. if who even wanna join plz log in to http://beautybeyondbeautiful.blogspot.com thanks. it is a great conference. welcome oversea too.
the price for the oversea and early bird is USD 265.00 and for malaysia is RM788 register before 13 April after 13 April all may need to paid for malaysia RM888.00, other Countries USD 288.00 welcome everyone to join.


the speakers is
- Mr Nicholas Choo
- Ms Joyce Chow
- Dr Wendy Loh
- Dr Henry Loh
- Ms Joyce Loh
- Ms Cordelia Lee

its have 8 session
1. who i am makes a different
2. my beautiful fast
3. breast health for every woman
4. Grooming and Sosial Graces
5. Heart Spa
6. What is Happening to my Beautiful Face?
7. Cervical health for every woman
8. my Three Beautiful CS

i really hope that i can do any thing
i love computer, love internet
but my sis dun think i can go study about it
my family think i am week and cant do any great things
how should i going to tell them i can

as last time when i going to study at sabah
my parent so worry about me
but in the end i even can take care for others too
then they just let go off me and let me go study with out worry

in my family mind
i am nothing
but i know in God eyes
i am somebody

when can i be God's somebody?
i dun know....
cause i am not God... i cant know what he thinking not even pastor do
but pastor can knowing his will by having intimate relationship with him...
so as will as men can had intimate relationship with God too...

so bad filling every time when i go working
and i had told myself not to working any more at office
i might want to help up
but my sis say that i cant do anything outside
i can be like my sis Rachel
what she want to do then she go and do
i am who cant do anything just can follow my family will
so how do i can do something that people might thing i am will doing for the things lei...
haih... so sad
non can i do

boring boring boring...
y so boring
cant i just had my day like that
no no way i cant waste my time
my time now is important for something
God give me more time men
need more time
plz.....

nada

am i look like malay...haha...

here we are...haha

this pic i most like haha

my secret is here...

me and my best friend

so sleeply

this piz when i was sem 1

crazy gurl boring taking boring photo hehe...

my friend long time not see...

this is my classmate DPR student miss you guys so much!!!

so ~~

so boring at home
so tired at work place
what can i do ~~nothing lol

now is hard to work for people
i wish so much people may trust me again
but my action let people not trusting me
what can i do so that others trust me so

i can do nothing...
cant do anything...
so sad ~~~

25 march

dun know how come today really tired and sad. at car i almost cry. reach home i meet pastor and others when pastor ask me 'how are you' my water almost come out. but when i saw my mum i can't even control myself any more it just open and non-stop. really tired and every way was so painful.

1st day

this is the 1st day i do my blog last time i use the friendaster to do. but now i want have my own blog so that i can share my filling and what had i been through with others. i like to tell others about my life, my days and... but there is no one listening. even my mum always say i am busy don't disturb me / go away don't disturb my work. but there is the only time i would like to share.